Anxiety. Stress. That’s me right now before the wedding. And you know what’s sad? Everything for the most part has gone swimmingly!
I’ve had some drama here and there, but I think what stresses me out us just how much it has to take over.
My family, friends and fiancé have been great. I’m incredibly thankful for their support.
I think this week in particular hit me because it doesn’t feel like it’s here. I think that’s mostly because for the last couple years I’ve taken vacations in September. But it also doesn’t feel like my wedding is next week.
Hence some stress. It’s all down to the wire. I can’t sleep, my body is out if whack and I know it’s all anxiety.
I know I shouldn’t be stressed or think about the small things. But they all matter. Sure they might not feel like it when it’s all said and done. It all matters though.
I think that’s why I feel so exhausted. It’s almost here. All this planning for one day that’ll come and go.
What’s more important is us. We’re both kicking ourselves for not going to the JP. We aren’t having an enormous ceremony but it had to be more than originally planned. I love everyone coming but it’s really supposed to be ours. I let that get away, but I’m sure I’ll be thankful later.
Just in interim I think about. All of it. It’s crazy.