So I think I’m having my first wedding meltdown.  Okay, it’s not nearly as bad as it sounds.  Everything just hit me all at once today that I have to do.  Sure, I have a lot done, but there’s still much to do.

I think what’s causing the nerves is the fact that I don’t have control of a lot. There are things I need from people or am waiting for phone calls to be returned.  Then there are also things I haven’t initiated yet just because I have to talk with people I haven’t talked to in a long time.

Then another thing is having to rely on people, whether it’s relying on them to respond or relying on them to be there. I get that my wedding is my day, therefore it doesn’t mean I get everyone up until then. Everyone has lives, including me. The last thing I want to be doing is imposing. I’m having issues understanding what people are happy to do and what imposing is…because I feel like it’s all imposing.

…and there’s that. My first wedding meltdown. I’m sure there are more to come. Like this, I’ll keep them to myself. Or as best as I can.