I got engaged on Friday. I really was just surprised and shocked, and really didn’t even know what to think as far as what I wanted–other than a small or courthouse wedding then a big party.
I’m the type of person who feels super awkward when all attention is on me. I’m great at, “Oh yes, I got engaged, it was wonderful. How are you?”
So it’s been weird for me to be completely overwhelmed with congratulations. It’s a wonderful thing though, so even though I say overwhelmed, it’s not a bad thing at all. People are so caring and so generous. It’s kind of like your birthday, only it lasts a little longer. And unlike you’re birthday, it’s not all done in a day. It’s the beginning of a long long journey and those first few days it hits you.
Another thing I’ve been getting a lot is advice. Great advice, but a lot of it. And since I really haven’t thought of what I want in a wedding or reception in such a long time, I don’t really know what I want. So I’m getting ideas from people and recommendations but the thing that I don’t want it to come across of to my now fiancé is that people are making plans for us.
I keep throwing my thoughts out there to him, but they aren’t set in stone. I’m still figuring it out. He’s figuring it out.
The stress has begun.